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LOABT008 – The Attraction-Based Universe and the Buffer Zone

We live in an attraction-based universe, according to Abraham Hicks.  What this means is that whatever we focus our attention and desire upon, we immediately begin attracting that into our experience.  However, this attraction-based universe has a built-in protection mechanism that is maintained by the illusion of time.  That protection mechanism is the buffer of “time”.

Sound confusing? Let me explain.

As I was discussing in a previous post, in an attraction-based universe we attract to us whatever things we think about and continue to put our focus and attention on.  However, the universe does not distinguish between good and bad “feelings”. Rather, it is where we put our energy and attention that draws things to us.  “Feelings” are merely our emotional gauge as to whether or not we are really attracting the things we want into our experience.  If we feel bad about a thing, chances are we are spending our energy on the wrong things and thus attracting the very things we do not want. The remedy is putting our attention on things that make us “feel” good.

Remember, the lesson is that the universe simply responds to our thoughts and energy or what we continually think about.  If we are constantly thinking of something, even something bad, the universe interprets that continual thought as something we want more of.  Our job therefore is not to STOP thinking about what we do not want but rather to think instead of what we DO want.

If I am obsessed by the fear that my partner will betray me, I can be sure that bad “feeling” I get when I think of being betrayed means it is something I do not want.  And yet, my constant fear and obsession about being betrayed is actually increasing the likelihood that I will be because that is where my thought and intentions are. The solution is to stop fearing being betrayed and instead think about the safe and secure relationship you are in and how happy you are being secure.  This, of course, is easier said than done. After all, if you don’t “feel” secure how can you “feel” safe? Enter the buffer of time. 

The time buffer allows your intuitive “feelings” to gauge whether you are attracting the things you desire.  Thank goodness we don’t immediately get whatever it is we are thinking about at any given moment.  How embarrassing would it be if you had a thought of how embarrassing it would be to have your pants fall down in front of a thousand people and instantly your pants fall down because you thought it into existence.  The buffer of time allows your thoughts to START bringing your thoughts into your experience immediately but they do not manifest immediately, instead allowing the buffer of time to let your feelings gauge if you are attracting the right things.  If you find your are attracting the wrong things into your existence there is still time to change your thoughts and start attracting what you DO want and feel good about.

LOABT007 – Inviting Others Into Your Experience

Considering that Jerry and Esther Hicks published an entire additional book on this concept (The Vortex), I was a little surprised how this message has been consistent since the very beginning of “Abraham’s” teachings. The concept we are discussing today is the idea that there is not a single person in your life today (nor has there ever a person who WAS in your life in the past) that wasn’t there because YOU invited them into your experience.

This is one of the hardest concepts for most people to accept when it comes to accepting the “Law of Attraction”. Often people will say things like, “I didn’t asked to be molested as a child.” Or, “I didn’t ask for an abusive spouse who beat me emotionally and physically for ten years”.  Basically, people generally refuse to accept that somehow they themselves are responsible for everything that happens to them even the bad things. But what if it were true?

While it might be hard to fathom how a child could ask to be abused, the solution could be that the decision about that experience was made long before you coming into physical existence. What if, for example, while in a spiritual state you decided you wanted to learn about childhood abuse to better understand what it is like for the victim. And what if, you were allowed to create for yourself a first hand experiential knowledge of it by becoming an abused child yourself?  It would make sense in THAT scenario, you yourself designed your physical experience to learn first hand what it is like. And, what if in order to understand the experience you had to forget that you yourself CHOSE that experience?  While it doesn’t make sense to those who believe we start existing when we are born and finish existing when we die, it might make sense to those who believe in some form of reincarnation.

Very recently a friend of mine was reflecting on the fact that I continually find myself in the very situations I don’t want to be in.  For example, I have a fear of being cheated on and yet have been repeatedly cheated on.  I am a huge believer in personal freedom that people have a right to privacy and yet I worked for over a decade for the intelligence community who it can be argued do not in the slightest believe in privacy and want to see everything you do and secretly spy on you.  I also don’t particularly like children and avoid them like the plague and yet now I work for a school district surrounded by children. 

My friend laughed and asked, how is it you keep having the very experiences you so desperately want to avoid? That is a great question but perhaps the key to answering that is to accept that I must have invited this situation into my life and ask what it is I need to learn from it.

LOABT004 – Layers of Reality

One of the earliest things Abraham Hicks shared with Jerry and Esther, according to the book “The Basic Teachings of Abraham Hicks”, was the statement that the non-physical world is inextricably linked with the physical world. This concept is one that appears in many traditions of esoteric knowledge, often referred to by the phrase “As Above, So Below”.

The reality however, as I see it, is that there is no “Above” nor “Below”. Rather, all layers of reality are overlapped or interlaced with one another at all times. What happens in the physical world is only a portion or manifestation of what is happening at any given time at all layers of “reality”.

Let’s set aside for a moment that time itself is an illusion and that all there is is the “now”. But for the moment, at least, I agree with the statement made by Abraham. Things are simultaneously happening at many layers of “reality” all at once, including the layers we can’t see with our physical eyes. Another way of saying this is that whatever happens in our physical reality is only a physical manifestation of things happening in the “unseen” world layered on top of ours and vice versa. Again, they are linked.

Furthermore, Abraham taught, we in the physical world are merely an extension of those in the spiritual world. I would suggest that what they really mean is that we and them are one in the same. Our physical bodies and reality are just one manifestation of what we are. Much like our finger is not “us” but rather a part of us, so too our entire physical body and the world we live in is not “us” but merely a part of us. We are this and much, much more.

Here in lies the great mystery for human understanding. We view ourselves as separate from them. We were taught, from many world religions, that there is “God” and there is “us’. We believe that the creator therefore must be greater and separate from the the thing being created. When, as “Jesus” is quoted as saying in the Bible that “I and the Father are one”, we again think that’s a special one-off case. Surely that can’t apply to all of us. Jesus must have said that because he himself is God but we are not! Personally, I think we may have missed the point. After all, Jesus also said, “Does not the scripture say that YOU are gods?”

Those of us who grew up Christian also believe there are other beings (often called angels and demons) that are not us. We again believe that we are separate from them and that there is “them” and there is “us”. I think “Christians” are getting a little closer when some of them suggest that each of us have a “guardian angel”. At least in this respect some Christians understand that there is some spiritual form that is linked to us in some way as “our” special spiritual connection.

In “reality”, I believe, they (those in the so-called spiritual realm) are all us and we are all them. The illusion that we are separate beings is the reason our focus and attention is solely fixated on the physical plane of existence. We have forgotten that we all ALSO exist on the “spiritual” plane as well and that all of us also have a spiritual component that is inseparable from what we call “ourselves”. We have simply filtered that part out, for whatever reason.

I believe Abraham Hicks will shed some light onto why it is we “humans” choose to forget that we also exist on the spiritual plane. Perhaps, as many believe, it is the great game. In order to “enjoy” our physical reality we must “forget” that we are also spiritual beings. It is, in a way, like purposefully forgetting the ending of a movie or book (if that were possible) so that you can experience the shock and wonder at the surprise ending yet again. If you already know what’s going to happen, the ending, in time, will get boring. Only by “forgetting” can we enjoy the surprise waiting for us.

LOABT003 – Non-physical Beings Use Non-physical Communication

Yesterday I shared some thoughts about how seekers like myself may not be able to quiet our own minds enough to receive the message from non-physical entities. This is true, I think, with the possible exception of psychedelics and meditation. Today I want to explain a little what I think happened to me on psychedelics and why I was able to communicate with non-physcal entities in “that space”. Also, I want to explain how my experience with psychedelics opened new pathways of communication through meditation that were not previously available.

Let me first start by trying to explain some of my experience communicating with non-physical entities while “under the influence” of a psychedelic, then I will explain why I think it works.

In my first ever experience I recall waiting for the “drug” to kick in. I had no real idea what to expect and was told that the experience is different for everyone so I tried to just let it happen. As I was staring up into a bright afternoon sky my ears began to ring with a high pitched ringing that I somehow knew had always been there but that I had simply filtered out. That was, in itself a lesson from some other intelligence. Without hearing words it was as if something in my head was telling me to pay attention. This ringing is always here. You know this already but you are remembering it now. Why do you pretend it isn’t there when all you have to do is listen? By the way, while typing this just now, the ringing is coming back loudly in my head. I am hearing the same ringing now because I’ve learned how to listen for it and turn my awareness to it.

The entire “trip” was much like this. I was continually reminded by a thought in my mind that I already know these things, I merely have to remember. I became aware, as the clouds above me began to fold in on each other like a kaleidoscope, that the trees were watching me. They had suddenly become aware that I had woken up and were now eyeing me suspiciously. I could feel the one closest to me was a female and very strong and powerful, she stared at me menacingly but another thought in my mind told me to just relax and I’ll be fine. “You have entered her space,” I remember thinking. “She is just making sure your not a threat.”. I felt like telepathically I was telling her I’m “ok” and not here to do anything evil. Eventually she stopped staring at me and became convinced I was not a threat.

The next communication I remember was when I was told to look at the temple. It again was not words but a feeling. I found myself feeling as if I had entered a sacred temple and that invisible teachers were here with me to teach me a lesson. I was asked somehow, without words, to look around and notice the beer cans and cigarette butts laying around the space around me. I became revolted by the idea that people would come into this temple and shit all over the place by leaving their drugs and alcohol all over the place. I was distinctly “told” for lack of a better word, that I should not treat this experience mundanely and do not disrespect the temple by treating it as if it’s just “doing drugs”. The garbage around me was what the profane do to the temple. Do not be like them. Do not treat this experience recreationally. This is not a game.

Later in my first trip I was shown pitch blackness and heard the dripping of water from somewhere as if I were in a pitch black cave underground. I asked the “experience” what this place was and I remember feeling the answer immediately, “REMEMBER!”. And suddenly I did remember. “Ive been here before!” I exclaimed. “Why did I forget this place?? I’ve been here!!!”

In my mind I was not given the answer about what the place was. I was just continually impressed to “remember”. Several times after that trip I came back to it again (the dark place with dripping water) and every time I came back I was angry about why I had forgotten it. I was never given the answer, simply asked to remember.

One more comment on this before I concluded with what I think is happening. From an outside perspective or that of a skeptic, there is NO proof of anything here. The conversation was entirely in my head and thus, to many, entirely made up by me. Then again, that is EXACTLY how telepathy is supposed to work. All I can tell you is that when I asked questions in my mind, the questions felt as if they were from me and were MY questions, but the answers felt like they came from someone entirely NOT me. I had the clear distinction between my own thoughts and the thoughts of something else.

So what is happening here? I have begun to theorize that most of us in our conscious state do not relax enough or lower our resistance enough to hear the answers to our questions from non physical entities. We are too rooted in the “here and now” or our physical reality to quiet the mind and pick up on the more subtle things around us. Just as I was made aware that the ringing I heard in my ears was always there but I merely tuned it out, so too I believe, non-physcal entities communicate with us all the time but we have tuned them out. But, on a high dose of psilocybin, you are no longer able to focus on the physical world. You are so deep into altered consciousness that you are no longer aware you are sitting in a chair or in a house, or laying on the beach. Your focus on the physical world around you is GONE and all you are left with are the things you normally tune out. That is where I met them and communicated with them. In time, I learned how to do it better with mere meditation, but that is another story.

[The series category LOABT contains my thoughts and observations about the book “The Law of Attraction: The Basic Teachings of Abraham Hicks”]

LOABT002 – Physical Mediumship

I’m going to continue sharing random thoughts about non-physcal entities for a while, understanding of course that many of you won’t remotely be interested. As I have stated before, I have little doubt that I have been in contact with intelligences of a non-physcal nature. That, for me, is not the question. The question is, what are they, how does it work and why doesn’t it work consistently? Why is there always room for doubting our communication and explaining everything away as random coincidence?

Now I want to make it clear for those still reading that what I experience is no different, in my opinion, than every single Christians experience. Christians, at the end of the day, cannot prove that God exists. Even when they themselves are 100% sure that God saved them from a near death experience or answered a prayer, if they tell a skeptic, that skeptic will make it clear that their experience is no proof at all. It is just the Christian’s gut feeling and explanation for random events. No miracle story about how “Jesus took the wheel” and saved them from a head on collision will convince the skeptic that it was anything other than the person’s wishful thinking. Ironically, these same Christian’s are usually the most likely to reject MY “evidence” for non-physcal entities because it feels in conflict with their own personal understanding of God.

As I was reading the teachings of Abraham Hicks (a supposed “channeled” group of entities), Esther and Jerry Hicks explained how Jerry and Esther were the perfect match for bringing Abraham forward. Jerry was a seeker. He had a million questions about life, the universe, and the meaning of it all. Esther, on the other hand was a more simple type who didn’t think too deeply about things and didn’t really care to question the nature of everything. As Jerry and Esther describe it, it was the combination of those two types that allowed Abraham to speak through Esther. It was Jerry who drew the non-physcal entities known as Abraham to him because he was the one seeking answers. However, Jerry’s skeptical mind did not allow “them” to communicate through him openly. His resistance was simply too high. Esther was able to fully relax, in a meditative state, and these beings were able to enter her in a way because she had no resistance. She let them in and work with her physical body to provide them an instrument to speak to Jerry.

In my own experience, I feel I am very much like Jerry. I have a million questions and would love to sit down with a non-physcal entity of sorts and ask it millions of questions. Because of this, I feel I have drawn some of their attention. They, whatever they are, know that I’m a seeker and are responding to my “vibration” (as the Law of Attraction would call it). I am drawing to myself those who can answer my questions. BUT, my resistance is far too high. I always have to look for the “scientific” explanation of everything. When something happens of a supernatural variety, my mind immediately starts questioning the experience. Sure, that was really strange, but it could be that….(And off I go with a scientific explanation that can dismiss everything I experienced as just a strange coincidence).

I have had a friend tell me that my unwillingness to just accept things for what they are prevents me from getting the answers I seek. Because I have to explain everything or understand everything, I do not allow for the possibility that some things simply can’t be explained with human logic and I close my mind. Like Jerry, I seem to need a physical medium who is not resistant to their communication methods and is open enough to allow them to speak without questioning everything.

In my life I feel I have met a few of these people, ones who do not think too deeply and are open to “allowing”. The problem is, they aren’t really interested in getting the message because they really don’t care. It is such a strange dichotomy. No wonder it is so rare to find someone who has the right disposition to receive the message. It seems you need both a seeker and one who doesn’t seek anything.

[The series category LOABT contains my thoughts and observations about the book “The Law of Attraction: The Basic Teachings of Abraham Hicks”]

LOABT001 – Jerry and Esther Hicks and Tarot

[The series category LOABT contains my thoughts and observations about the book “The Law of Attraction: The Basic Teachings of Abraham Hicks”}

While reading a book tonight on the Law of Attraction I was reminded about how when I was younger, my conservative Christian beliefs would not allow me to try any of the well-known tools for communicating with non-physical entities. I was, for sure, aware of their existence, but I was taught that they were “angels” or “demons” and largely I was taught to fear them. I was also told what these beings were not. They most certainly were NOT dead people, ghosts, or anything that suggested that there is consciousness that survives death. That was, according to my parents, a direct contradiction of the Bible for the Bible says “the dead known nothing”. And so, my parents convinced me any “ghost-like” encounter was just a demon playing tricks on me and I was encouraged to pray to Jesus and beg them to go away. For decades I feared them and shut them out, even while they continued to let me know they were there. They never hurt me, never touched me, and, I only feared them until I realized I had nothing to fear.

I have felt for my whole that I have seen first-hand “evidence” of non-physical entities communicating with me. They have, and still do, frequently disturb things in my house, mimic sounds that come from places and situations not possible, knock things over or bang on walls and, at times, they have even manifested themselves by blowing out light bulbs, knocking things over, creating balls of light that explode in the darkness before me, and much, much, more.

While reading tonight the author explained his own fears and prejudices over using a Ouija board. Like me, he was taught to fear something he didn’t understand. And, like me, he eventually gave in and decided to see for himself. While the Ouija board did not work for him when he was alone, he witnessed many people who used it and found that certain individuals truly seemed to be in contact with something intelligent of a non-physical nature.

Like the author, I tried Ouija in my attempt to finally communicate with non-physical entities. And, like the author, the Ouija just didn’t seem to work for me when I was alone. It “sort of” worked with a friend of mine but never after that. To be fair, I didn’t try a whole lot though I still own a board today.

What HAS worked for me, at least to some extent, is Tarot. That, and psychedelics. Honestly, NOTHING compares to psychedelics in it’s ability to open MUCH more clear communication with non-physical entities, but Tarot does seem to do something for me that doesn’t require an altered state of consciousness.

I have worked off and on with Tarot for years now and have found that I resonate with one particular artist the most, Ciro Marchetti. Every time I look at Ciro Marchetti’s decks I feel something stirring inside me that says “PAY ATTENTION!!!”. I have never resonated so fully with a “foci” (as I call it) than I do with Ciro’s tarot. The images “speak” to me and I have managed to intuitively discover interesting things about myself though them. No, the communication via the cards is not as clear or concise as a telepathic conversation with “god consciousness” or non-physical entities while under the influence of psilocybin, but it’s a start.

Why am I sharing this with you? I just find that a lot of people don’t even know that I have used tarot or that I put much “faith” in it. Hell, until this last year not a lot of people knew I was an experienced psychonaut (explorer of consciousness via psychedelics) either. If any of you have had what you feel are experiences with non-physical entities, I would LOVE to hear about them and what you think about that experience. If you work with any tools for communicating with non-physical entities such as ouija, tarot, meditation, automatic writing, etc, I would love to hear your experience as well. Even if you just believe you saw your dead grandmother one time rocking in a rocking chair by the fire, I’d like to hear. It doesn’t have to change what your religious beliefs are or lead to an argument about what God is or isn’t. I’m just curious if anyone out there puts ANY weight in it or if you have dismissed it as non-sense.

Lee’s Library – Is the United States the Whore of Babylon

The following are random thoughts generated while reading “Solomon’s Builders: Freemasons, Founding Fathers and the Secrets of Washington D.C.”

Before I get started let me remind you once again that I no longer consider myself christian nor do I find that the “Bible” contains authoritative truth for me. Having said that, these two facts do not mean that I still don’t ask myself biblical questions based on my knowledge and understanding of Christian dogma. Today is one of those days.

I remember pretty clearly the day that the World Trade Center towers came down. Even I, a non practicing christian at the time, immediately felt as if something just happened of “Biblical Proportions” and, for about seven years following I became an ultra conservative “Christian” of sorts. I will discuss that more in my memoir “The Story of Me”.

Soon after 9/11 however, I began hearing christians quote a famous biblical prophecy, “Behold! Behold! Babylon has fallen and has been laid low and all the nations weep at her destruction.”. The implied connection was that the United States was the modern day equivalent of “Babylon” mentioned in the Book of Revelations and that the twin towers coming down was a prophesied judgment from God and signaled the end was near.

Christians can be a confusing lot. To equate the United States with modern day Babylon is to suggest that the United States is a wicked nation in opposition to God. No other city save Jerusalem is mentioned as much in the Bible and Babylon almost always stands in opposition to God and Israel. How therefore is it that OTHER christians refer to the United States as a “christian” nation who proudly declares, “In God We Trust” and refers to itself in it’s pledge as “one nation under God” yet also say it’s modern Babylon? To understand this I think a brief history of ancient Babylon and the Founding Fathers of America are in order.

It’s ok to groan, I get it.

It is an established fact that many of the founding fathers of the United States were members of a society known as Freemasonry (a society formed in 1717 in part upon the principle of free men and freedom of religion). Their influence and political and religious ideas form a big part of the basis of our modern government.

Most people in America, I would venture to say, are proud of the concept of freedom, especially of religion. Americans take pride in the fact that ALL religions are accepted here and that you will not be persecuted by your government simply because you believe in a different god than someone else. Having said that, it is my firm conviction that freedom of religion is a very UNBIBLICAL concept and the God of the Bible most CERTAINLY does not believe in freedom of religion. If you know anything about the Bible, when God agrees to be Israel’s God he demanded they put to death anyone worshipping another God and to tear down any idols and objects of worship belonging to other gods. You didn’t see temples to other gods in Jerusalem.

Ancient Babylon, however, was much more like modern America and nothing like ancient or even modern Jerusalem. Historical evidence supports the fact that ancient Babylon was once called in Sumerian times Ka-dingirra or “The Gate of the Gods” and they had four major temples devoted to four different gods as well as I believe twelve or thirteen gates into the city, each gate named after a different god. In Babylon, literally no one’s god was better than another and everyone was “free” to worship which ever god they choose. Again, this is technically Americas position too. You are free to worship whom you choose.

So perhaps you can see why some christians made the connection that the United States and it’s position that all gods are equal is more like ancient Babylon than ancient Jerusalem (the city of God). In Jerusalem the worship of other gods would never be permitted and you would be put to death if caught worshipping another god.

It has always struck me as odd when some christians maintain the belief that the United States is a “christian” nation that needs to return to its christian roots. If one understands that Christianity came out of Judaism and that presumably the God of Israel is the same God of Jesus, well it doesn’t make sense that a christian nation would believe in freedom to worship any God you choose.

As an aside, early Christians know as Gnostics came to the conclusion that the God of Israel was NOT in fact the same God that Jesus worshipped. I could also make an argument that Freemasons have a lot of gnostic beliefs so maybe that’s how they reconciled freedom of religion being ok in God’s book. The God of Jesus, they might believe, is ok with the worship of other gods but not that “jealous God” of the Old Testament.

The point of today’s post, loosely inspired by the book Solomon’s Builders is simply that the United States was founded on ideals that one could argue are extremely unbiblical (i.e. that all gods are equal in importance). I am convinced that the God of Israel would not have tolerated today’s American society. I simply cannot ignore my feelings about this every time someone refers to the United States as a “christian” nation.

Rant over

Lee’s Library – Solomon’s Builders

Random thoughts from the book: “Solomon’s Builders: Freemasons, Founding Fathers and the Secrets of Washington, D.C.”

Growing up Seventh-Day Adentist, I’d heard more than a few bad things about the secret society known as the Freemasons.  While one of my grandfathers was, himself, allegedly a Freemason and despite the fact that my mother refused to believe he was involved in anything “evil”, the general attitude among those in the Adventist church was that the Freemasons held religious beliefs that were certainly NOT “Christian” or inline with the teachings of the Bible.  Of those who were more radical in their views of Freemasonry, they believed that the masons were flat out secret devil worshipers. 

As a young Christian (before I left the church)  I did a bit of study into the Freemasons and saw enough in my own studies to conclude that the two main objections of my Adventist “family” were true.  One, the tenets of masonry are not really in line with traditional “Biblical” teaching. That is still my opinion today though that doesn’t mean the masons are wrong. And second, yes, some (if not most) masons view Lucifer as a “light bringer” and thus one of the good guys.  This does not, however, mean that masons are “devil worshipers” or that they are necessarily wrong.  I think they just have a bit of a gnostic view of the world and so do I. And no, that doesn’t make ME a devil worshiper either.  

Anyway, one of the most fascinating books I ever started reading was a book titled something like “The Secret Architecture of our Nation’s Capital”. I didn’t read much past the first quarter of the book because it was frankly a little dry.  What was fascinating about it however was that the book was quite scholarly with lots of cited references and even endorsements from the head of NASA and the Freemasons which acknowledged that not only was the book accurate, but that it perhaps is the best book ever written on the subject.  The basic premise of that book was that our Founding Fathers established America as a sort of occult (hidden knowledge) mecca and that all over the U.S. Capital are evidence of their occult beliefs (often very UN-Christian despite those claiming the nation was founded as a “Christian” nation) and hints as to what was the true purpose of America.

In my life I have had maybe one real friend who would even consider this sort of information interesting.  Most people I know scoff at the idea that there is some dark or occult (hidden) agenda that is kept from the masses.  Most people I associate with are just not “into” conspiracy theories and have been conditioned to mock all such theories before even considering the possibility some of it might be true or ask “why”.  In any case, when I saw the title of this book, “Solomon’s Builders: Freemasons, Founding Fathers and the Secrets of Washington, D.C.” I was immediately intrigued. Not only does it hint at covering the same topic of the hidden occult symbols around Washington, D.C. but it hints at looping in occult beliefs about King Solomon from the Bible which is a topic that has fascinated me for years.

Was it true, for example, that King Solomon (one of the greatest kings of Israel) was believed to have dabbled in occult magic and used special symbols or rings and amulets to summon and compel demons to help build a temple to the Most High God?  That was the tradition I had heard after leaving Christianity, but is there any proof or evidence for this or is it merely wild speculation? And, if it were true, what insights might this tell us about angels, demons, and the goings on of the spiritual realms?